art in the yard

was today. it was pretty cool. (i know i know, i haven’t said anything…)
i got ‘free hugs’ painted on my face, and then so did heather. hiral got a goatee-unibrow combo, and i got pics of mateo. which is a miracle. also from him i got a hug, but i got those from everyone.
i bought some earrings and took more pictures. we basically had no bells today; a.i.t.y., algebra, phys. sci. (aced a test, by the way), half history, half a.i.t.y., then lunch (also a.i.t.y.), then english, then a.i.t.y., then what could have been a.i.t.y. but i went on the fields and walked.

and about this week; i had bad food and absolutely DIED after school. it was terrible.
and today i tripped on some neanderthal’s purse/bag thing and banged my jaw on a the edge of a table.
so it hurts to eat. and i, unlike so many teenage… well it’s thursday so ‘girl’ doesn’t apply, but i do like to eat. and that’s why it sucks.
<33
oh, and i’m going to spain this summer. angie was gonna come with me but her dad wanted to take her somewhere, so whatever. i’ll have the ‘rents, and they’re cool.
plus probably more tolerable than any of my
‘friends’.
and i haven’t been over the ocean before, it’ll rock.
and here we go, funny incident time:
for am. history, we had an essay test. if we made an outline for it over the weekend and it was approved, we could transfer it to one side of a 3-by-5 index card. gordon, whose sister had already taken our am. history class, had heard from her that he was supposed to copy his whole ESSAY to the card. poor jen. but i love the girl. :p
i’ll post something longer and better soon, i swear!

anoooother double bubble doublinnnng

standard! except this time it’s just boygirl not any sexuality herrrre. just what we all do and observe. but i’m pretty sure you’ll all agree–

actually, no.

but you know me. it’ll be insignificant and odd. but here it is: crotch-scratching. guys do it, girls– oh, wait, they don’t. why? no, really. i don’t know. ’cause when a guy scratches his balls (yep i said it now shoot me), no-one cares, but if a girl does, everyone’s like

‘uhhh that isn’t ‘proper’ or polite, you knowwww?’

it’s pretty annoying because i know the human body doesn’t have too many double standards, and my crotch is just as itchy as any guy’s. 😐 and since i am in the privacy of my own home?

scratch.

well not really, but i could if i was itchy, without cries of revulsion. maybe it’s just the crowd i hang with.

‘mean people suck, they suck, theysucktheysucktheysuck!’

webcomics:

so i’ve been absorbed in webcomics lately. i love them. to death. and i’ve found some good ones, that, if you ever ever ever any of you ever read this, then i shall share! 😀

menage a trois:

http://www.menagea3.net — it basically starts with gary’s search for roommates. the plot picks up and so on. it’s hilarious but definitely not pg. or pg-13. . . yeah. there’s sex and sex talk and asses and boobies, but no REAL naughty bits. that i have seen. but yes.

‘O Lord! i thank thee for this bounty of half-naked, greased-up, man-on-man action i am about to receive!’

misfile:

http://www.misfile.com&#8211; in heaven, a misfile of anything is a tragic disastrous screw-up. whilst stoned, one of the angels in heaven switches up two people’s life; accidentally making one of them a girl, and removing two years of the other’s life. caution, for all of you conservative people; there is drugs and there is language and there is girl-on-girl kissing and yadda yadda.

‘in one corner of the universe, there’s nothing more irritating than a misfile.’

foamy the squirrel:

http://www.illwillpress.com&#8211; yeah, yeah. i know this is a webtoon and not a comic, but i love jonathan ian mathers, so you’ve got to put up with this; basically no plot, but you follow foamy’s rants and there ARE NOW COMIC STRIPS. enjoy the goodness, please. oh yeah, there’s vulgarity and the usual. i’m sorry but i’m just not holy. 😦

‘you will face my squirrely wrath!’

left handed toons (by right-handed people):

http://www.lefthandedtoons.com&#8211; no plot, no specific characters, just toons drawn by left handed people. i love them to death, and they’re usually pretty hilarious. 🙂

‘ARE YOU DRUNK? what’s behind your back? SHOW ME! -gasp- A DIDGERIDOO! you ARE drunk! … what’s in the other hand?! … -gasp- YOU’VE BEEN POLE-VAULTING!?!’

‘it’s MY life!! -sob-‘

yu+me dream

http://www.rosalarian.com/yume/&#8211; possible nudity (boobies) language, lesbian love, etc. don’t like, don’t go. i read odd comics, so kill me. you follow fiona, a total outcast, through life in her ultra-conservative christian school. the kids hate her, her stepmom hates her, the nuns hate her… that’s probably on the first or second page, but oh well. but then she meets lia, and isn’t too sure of how she feels about her, and what it means– at first. :p i’m not gonna mention party two cause it’s a total spoiler for the first plot, but it’s love.

‘you’re making a scene. and we’re not sociopaths; life is… simpler here. we have the answers to all of the big questions; is there a god? what happens when you die? how on earth did george w. bush become president?’

candi

http://www.candicomics.com&#8211; there’s not too much of a plot, but this is college life. it’s hilarious, and yes, they talk about sex, and yes, there is swearing, and yes and yes and yes. but it’s great, the art is nice, and it’s hilarious. 🙂 enjoy.

‘thumpa-sprung,thumpa-sprung,thumpa-sprung,thumpa-sprung,thumpa-sprung,thumpa-sprungOHGOD,YES!!thumpa-sprung,thumpa-sprung,thumpa-sprung,thumpa-sprung…’

‘don’t you wish the walls weren’t paper thin?’

‘oh god yes.’

ugly girl

http://nanda.comicgenesis.com/&#8211; it’s another misfit comic! with girl-girl love. i am sensing a pattern here. but you follow ugly girl through her story, where her only friend is sister-person, who is dating her brother (hence the moniker). occasionally is will spring to ugly’s sister’s story, which is where your girl-love begins. uhm, i’m done summarizing plots now, i do that enough in our newspaper’s book reviews.

‘well, well. dead silence. that’s not awkward or anything.’

 

i’m done now. i hope my HOARDS OF READERS look at these, ’cause they’re good and they deserve more readers.

if only someone would UHMHINTPLZ return the favour.

no, not really. i’m fine being ALONE.

-dramatic-

well, bye now! 🙂 —–me

useless possessions and passover, too

i spent too much money on shit i don’t need or particularly want. i went in to get a used video game and came out with 2 games and a guide. do i need it? no. do i want it? no. did the realization of this put me into a bad mood? yes.

though it may have to do with the lack of bread. D: yepp, it’s passover time, which i justly dislike, but do anyway. they had soft shell tacos at school, and what do i get? matzo nachos. 😐 better than the rest of the week will be, i bet.

i really don’t want to do this. the game or the food-lacking. but the seders last night and the night before that, they were fun.

on wednesday we went to a family friend’s thing, me and matrem. 😐 we listened to max play the guitar in the living room, in between prayers, and i talked to the others, including telling sam that if he didn’t stop kicking me from under the table i’d take his foot off, and talking about random sht with ben.

then last night i went to eve’s seder with my godmother and her boyfriend (eve’s dad) and my parents. oh, and eve’s mom and sister. them, too. we acted silly and i found BOTH of the afikomen, thank you very very much! but we all got prizes, which deflated my ego a bit (god knows i need it).

anyway, if you want to go inflate your ego and/or feel better about your life, or at least think it isn’t so shitty, go here:

http://www.fmylife.com

fuck

my

life.<3

hope you enjoy.

if i could fallll into the skyyyy

i walked FOUR miles, not 1000. sorry, vanessa carlton or carlson. whatever. yeahh, we walked the loop.

mateo wasn’t dressed out for p.e. (when we walked part of my 4 miles), but he walked with us, and i heard him talking to jeff about jewish stuff. and he’s like ‘yeah, my rabbi says that only ‘pure’ jews can birth a real jewish baby.’ then he runs up and taps my side and goes

‘so? are you ‘pure’ jewish?’

‘my mom’s jewish…?’

‘and your dad?’

‘…he’s athiest. sorta.’

‘oh, i don’t know what you are. but you couldn’t birth a ‘proper’ jewish baby.’

‘that’s so sad. well, i guess i’m just fucked! :D’

we’re weird. and we talked about how all of us are minorities but drew. me being female and jewish, heather being female, marc being asian, jeff being black, mateo being jewish, and wellllll. in marc’s words?

he’s just kind of screwed over. :p

that was short, but nothing too bad happened. i just walked some, enjoyed myself, worked on my physical science brochure. etc.

and that’s all for nowww. 😀

—moi

song meme that i made up

i made this meme, cause i kind of rock, and it’s sad that this is the only ‘good’ thought that i had whilst doing chemistry homework. 😐 the songs are basically what i ‘think’ of the people. 🙂 clever, aren’t i? :p

 

• vaughn pablo y. – ‘he wasn’t’, avril lavigne
• mateo nathan r. – ‘the perfect drug,’ nine inch nails
• zakk attakk – ‘if we kissed,’ fiona apple
• lashanda ivana e. – ‘just the girl’, the click five 
• amelia emily n. – ‘sleepers,’ saosin
• topher christian a. – ‘uncle fucker,’ terrence and philip (ohh, topher. xD)
• heather ivy s. – ‘on my own,’ three days grace
• angie jessica d. – ‘never let you go,’ alexia philips
• eve zoey n. – ‘sympathy,’ the goo goo dolls
• hiral robert d. – ‘soul man,’ the blues brothers
• jaxton alton h. – ‘wish you were here,’ pink floyd (this is our song, and purely coincidence. >:3 yeah!)
• colette alexandra r. – ‘lady marmalade,’ patti labelle
• stacey carol f. – ‘bullshit,’ mindless self indulgence
• noelle ever costello – ‘another one bites the dust,’ queen (really?)
• dot madison m. – ‘mr. sandman,’ the chordettes (i’m a freak)
• lynn emily s. – ‘mood rings,’ relient k

 

there’s an inkling of truth to this. xD which is a bit sad. and i liked the irony of jaxton and my song coming up. 🙂 by the way, vaughn is totally a new addition to this. we talk in class a lot, and i’m probably calling him tonight to keep guessing about a girl he likes.

apparently she’s in my clique (she’s listed here) and she’s not ‘popular’. (that pretty much comes with being in my clique. XD)

so i have no idea what i’ll do if it’s me, which it probably isn’t. it could be:

• dot

1. he doesn’t like her because she told a secret of his

• heather
• lynn

1. she liked him a while ago and majorly freaked him out by pitching a fit about it

• stacey

1. they’re exes

• angie

1. they’re exes
2. they had a huge fight after a period of ignoring each other and after breaking up
3. not really a huge fight, but a long, angry silence and a bunch of random insults on her part

• eve
• noelle/me
• collette
• zakk (it’s totally possible!)

1. he said that it was a girl
2. they’re best friends
3. but they’re kind of cute together. . . not that any of you have seen them, but it’s adorable. take my word for it.

• cici

1. they don’t talk. cici, sophie, molly, marianna, and maryanne are not exactly in our clique, either.

• sophie

1. they don’t talk. cici, sophie, molly, marianna, and maryanne are not exactly in our clique, either

• molly

1. they don’t talk. cici, sophie, molly, marianna, and maryanne are not exactly in our clique, either.

• marianna

1. they don’t talk. cici, sophie, molly, marianna, and maryanne are not exactly in our clique, either.

• maryanne

1. they don’t talk. cici, sophie, molly, marianna, and maryanne are not exactly in our clique, either.

likely suspects? eve, collette, heather, and me. now, if it’s me, i have no idea what to do. he knows (like, uh, the rest of the grade!) that i’m bisexual, but god. if i liked a boy, and it turned out that he liked another boy…

well, it wouldn’t be too ego crushing. maybe i’d watch porn with him. XD i really wouldn’t care, but i’m weird. but is it a huge blow to a guy’s ego? rejecting him, for a girl? D: jesus. i just hope it isn’t me.

not that i don’t want people to like me, but…

oh, and zakk is not single anymore. which is sad, believe me. they’ll be done before summer, though. he ignores her, because he’s just awkward, and she gets pissed and annoying when she does. and she’s not a nice person, so maybe he’ll come to his senses?

noo, she’s not nice. she’s talented and pretty, but nice, no. humble, no. focused or dedicated, no.

…i don’t like her. duh. but i haven’t liked her since forever. she acts exactly like me, but, in the oh so subtle words of an idiot-boy whose name i will not mention (i don’t even know who it was anyway) ‘she’s prettier’.

well, sure. a short, skinny, tanned girl with big brown eyes and dirty blonde streaked hair is probably more conventionally pretty than an average height, 34-24-36 (beat that, bitches. :p), redheaded/purple-haired/brunette/whatever girl with green eyes, bangs, and glasses.

oh, hell. maybe everyone just lacks taste.

maybe.

‘and i opened my e-mail, and i was like; ‘what? carrots? in THERE?” ‘wouldn’t they tickle? . . . like, the feathers? i think they’re peck at you, too.’ ‘…what?’ ‘well, you know. a parrot? in there?’ ‘…idiots.’ — me, eve, heather, eve, and me. in that order. in p.e. we discussed why guys always talk about how they look at porn, but girls are quiet about it.

(… not us. but that’s for another time! sayonara!)

voices

no, i’m not hearing them (yet). it’s just, people don’t like other people because they look… unpleasing. is it superficial to dislike or avoid someone because of the way they sound?

not that i do this. not too much. i’ll turn the phone volume down if i talk to eve, because her voice gives me headaches, but that’s the worst i do. and i avoid her when she’s happy, because she talks a lot, and with a verrry high pitched voice.

helium=do not want.

maybe it’s for another reason? maybe it is. i have no idea. i don’t have a problem with any other people’s voices; not steph’s (and her voice is pretty high) and not mattia’s (whose sounds a lot like mine (low + mumbling)), not heather’s, not lashawnda, and not annnny of the guys.

because they have voices of a normal tone. but why eve? would i still avoid her if the opening of her mouth gave me a headache? or is it just, when i’m in a bad mood, or she’s one-upped me (everyone loves to one-up their biffs. admit it), and maybe i’m just a horribly jealous person?

yeah, that’s about right. but then, she, for some reason, revulses me some times. not all of the time, and not even most of the time. i just feel like vomiting.

but then again, even my relatives can make me do that. but not as often. and that’s why i worry. 😐

that’s all for now. i’m probably going to a party with lashawnda. i mean, i’m sure she’ll go with me (we’re acquainted pretty well), and it’s not like she’ll think it’s a big deal,

BUT I’M SO DAMN NERVOUS ABOUT THE REJECT-SHUN. D:

i mean both of those words in that compound the way they are written. just so you know. but the party’s in may anyway (some memorial day shindig at a pool i go to. no huge deal. 🙂 )

happy day happy day. 😐

‘she’s a rebel, she’s a saint, she’s assault of the earth– and she’s dangerous.’ –green day, ‘she’s a rebel’

quick thanks

this isn’t even a rant, but i’ve gotten three comments and 8 pageviews (in one day)
(not a huge feat, buuut for me?)
and i think that’s great. for me.
and thanks to people who comment. i’ll try to be as interesting as someone who plays ‘pokemon’ in her spare time, and complains about everything, can be.

double double double double!

standards!

i want to be able to pass as a boy. so i look for a little how-to. but you know what? ALL I FIND, even if i put quotes around “for girls” “girl dressed as boy” it’s always about either boys who want to dress like girls, or both. nothing specifically for people born with vaginas.

now i don’t care about what’s between my legs. really. sorrrrry to offend, (maybe not) but i don’t! i think i can pass as what-ever i want. and you know? i can. no thought process required. i = androgyny. booyah. <33

–your pissed-off ever-gender-confused diva lover boyfriend girlfriend whatever

cheer me up?

i feel like absolute crap. as my ‘status’ on several of my pages on several sites says:

i feel like the feces of a rat who has eaten the scum that grew from a sponge that was left and forgotten after ‘cleaning’ the shower because it had grown mold.

that’s it. i did horribly on my algebra exam and i’m freaking the fck out.

oh, and i’m still sick. if it’s karma, what did i do?

i missed the honour society induction. MY honour society induction. and i missed a party. MY goddamn party!

and i have the worst migraine. and you know what’s pathetic? i’m so fucking messed up that here’s what happened:

my mom sneezed. i started to CRY.

partly because it was loud. and it kills my hears and i reallllly want to just curl up and die.

except the girl on ‘what not to wear’ is pretty cute and that’ll keep me entertained until two ‘o clock, which is when i’ll abandon all happy thoughts and want to curl up and die again.

dammit i hate this. i’d type in a little sad emoticon, but that doesn’t really fit.